Sometimes I wonder if I am a writer without an outlet. I talk a lot and I think that I annoy people in doing so. But when there are people around willing to pay me any kind of attention, I take advantage of it. That is not to say that I don't have family members and friends who care a great deal about me, but I often feel like everyone wants me to shut up. I get a subject between my teeth like the (temporary) resurgence of The Lizzie Bennett Diaries and I cannot stop talking about it. I don't know why. Its a little like I am trying to browbeat my audience into agreeing with me. But it also feels as if I get something out of someone listening to me. When someone talks to me, I pay attention. I disengage from whatever I was doing and focus on them. I find it frustrating that many people don't extend the same courtesy to me. Am I really talking so much more than them? Is what I have to say really so uninteresting? I think I need another outlet, but I think part of the effect for me is the audience. I think that talking makes me feel worthy, because I know there is an audience. I write stuff here and although it is the internet and anyone could look at it no one does. I think that my life would be dramatically improved and perhaps my relationships if I could find an additional audience. I don't know. Just stuff to think about. (I read an article that made me want to write a novel.)