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You just don't get it
Dec. 15th, 2013 01:14 amI am a little ticked at my mom. I love my mom and we normally get along fairly well. Often, when we do not get along it is because her view of me is something that is so important to me that I am unable to let things go sometimes.
A short while ago my mom texted me and asked me what my shirt size was. Thinking that I was talking with my mother, I responded with a long text about how I was not sure and there were all of these factors thinking that she could sympathize. I had been struggling just before that with choosing sizes for some things I was looking at on the internet. So i went on this rant. I found out shortly after that she had sent to whole thing to my uncle, her youngest brother. I was not happy and I thought that it made me look bad. I was upset, because if I had known that someone else was asking I would have looked at the shirts that I own and wear and given a definitive answer. I feel like I looked like a complete basket case. Well, that was over, so I texted my mom back to explain to her why I had responded that way that I had (mainly the issue with internet shopping, but also I was on my period). I wasn't in the best mood, but it was over.
Then today, the first time that I had seen her in person since the texting, we were out at dinner (after being unable to eat at our first restaurant choice due to computer issues) and she pulled out her phone and showed me that conversation between her and my uncle about my texts. It made me incredibly uncomfortable, because they were laughing at me and I know that I am not the most logical person all of the time, but this felt unfair. It was mostly fine until at the end I saw that she had sent the last text about my period. I was horrified and felt betrayed. It just felt like an attack and no one is supposed to know how much of a hard time women have figuring out sizes and I didn't want to look that way to him. I expressed my horror and she says that he has a teenage daughter, so it is all fine, but its not. He is my uncle. I love him very much, but we are not particularly close. I don't think that he should have that information. I tried to express how I was feeling and she started acting like I was ruining dinner. She finally said that she was sorry that she had told and as an afterthought that she was sorry she had done it. She later said that she was two margaritas and a glass of wine down, as if that should absolve her.
Now my uncle is going to think less of me than he did and the opinion of my family is very important to me. Not to mention that it is going to get brought up at every available opportunity, because my family is full of teases. Normally, I don't mind but this going to be horrible.
I just feel so stupid and exposed. I know that she can't take it back, but I wish she would really acknowledge how is makes me feel and take responsibility in her part of that however unintentional it was.
A short while ago my mom texted me and asked me what my shirt size was. Thinking that I was talking with my mother, I responded with a long text about how I was not sure and there were all of these factors thinking that she could sympathize. I had been struggling just before that with choosing sizes for some things I was looking at on the internet. So i went on this rant. I found out shortly after that she had sent to whole thing to my uncle, her youngest brother. I was not happy and I thought that it made me look bad. I was upset, because if I had known that someone else was asking I would have looked at the shirts that I own and wear and given a definitive answer. I feel like I looked like a complete basket case. Well, that was over, so I texted my mom back to explain to her why I had responded that way that I had (mainly the issue with internet shopping, but also I was on my period). I wasn't in the best mood, but it was over.
Then today, the first time that I had seen her in person since the texting, we were out at dinner (after being unable to eat at our first restaurant choice due to computer issues) and she pulled out her phone and showed me that conversation between her and my uncle about my texts. It made me incredibly uncomfortable, because they were laughing at me and I know that I am not the most logical person all of the time, but this felt unfair. It was mostly fine until at the end I saw that she had sent the last text about my period. I was horrified and felt betrayed. It just felt like an attack and no one is supposed to know how much of a hard time women have figuring out sizes and I didn't want to look that way to him. I expressed my horror and she says that he has a teenage daughter, so it is all fine, but its not. He is my uncle. I love him very much, but we are not particularly close. I don't think that he should have that information. I tried to express how I was feeling and she started acting like I was ruining dinner. She finally said that she was sorry that she had told and as an afterthought that she was sorry she had done it. She later said that she was two margaritas and a glass of wine down, as if that should absolve her.
Now my uncle is going to think less of me than he did and the opinion of my family is very important to me. Not to mention that it is going to get brought up at every available opportunity, because my family is full of teases. Normally, I don't mind but this going to be horrible.
I just feel so stupid and exposed. I know that she can't take it back, but I wish she would really acknowledge how is makes me feel and take responsibility in her part of that however unintentional it was.
